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***This is an ode to all that's been lost. Whether it is something as inconsequential as socks that disappeared in the dryer or one half of your favorite pair of earrings or something of a much greater magnitude- your identity lost in the pursuit of material wealth, a job, love, or a dream. Take a moment to think about what you've lost to get where you are today and to assess whether it was really worth it. I read this great quote a long time ago that talked about whether or not the sacrifices you've made in your life were worth it but I can't find it online right now:/. Here is a similar quote dealing with sacrifices: "One-half of knowing what you want is knowing what you must give up before you get it." - Sidney Howard***
8/5/11
I give up
I’m tired
Exhausted from trying to be what I am not
Wearing braids in my hair when I’d rather my dark strands fly free
It’s getting harder to pretend now
and a little scary
Because sometimes I'm unable to tell which is the act and which the truth
I’ve begun to eat, bathe, and sleep in character
Wearing a mask frozen upon my face like Botox gone wrong
I miss my wrinkles
I’ve convinced myself of many things in the past
But this farce is the worst
Because I’ve started to believe it as firmly
As I used to believe in love
Maybe to fix this, I need to rediscover myself
And what made me once unique
Cast aside the blonde wig
And my pretend love for jazz
Isn't it ironic,
That somewhere along my path to attain you,
"my truth"
I lost myself?
my mom used to make me wear a braid to school everyday. SOMETIMES a pony tail and never let me just leave it down. now i can't stand tying my hair lol
ReplyDeletei think you can polish this a little more to have it flow better or maybe it's the breakdown of the lines that i dont agree with?
i like the concept of 'wearing a mask frozen upon my face like botox gone wrong'.. but hmm i think when you say 'gone wrong' the style youre writing the poem changes for those two words. so either phrase it differently or find a different way to say it??
i really like "and my pretend love for jazz" and what it signifies lol
i like the concept of this poem a lot though! just tweak it up a bit and itll be beautiful like you :)
i like the concept of this one too, i keep trying to relate it back to you.. sometimes you are a bit mysterious ;)!
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