Rational Anger

6/11/2011
**As rational as anger can get I think. I'm curious, what type of emotion does reading this evoke in you? Can you feel the anger or not?**

If only you knew the self-control
It takes to not let my words slap you in the face
My words would burn
Leaving behind a nasty red imprint on your soul

Once I release my barricades
My fury and resentment will seep out
I might even utter words that I may later regret
But right now, it’s the truth
And I want to hurt you
So I don’t care

What you think is a submissive stare down at the floor
Is really my best attempt to hide my rage
My last attempt to control myself
But I know one day soon, that will no longer be enough

I’ve tried convincing myself several times
That perhaps it is I who is in the wrong
But because my characteristic ability to see both sides does not fail me
I know this to be untrue

I’ve rehearsed the scene many times
Sometimes it involves a calm coolness
With fully articulate thoughts
Other times tears
But always angry raised voices

Sometimes we work things out
Other times we sever our ties
I’m uncertain as to which I want
I know my partiality is preventing me
From acknowledging your positives
But I don’t care

All I know is I feel imprisoned
And I want to be free

As my resentment puts distance between us
Your anger grows
My anger grows
And the distance increases
Soon we’ll be seeing each other from two different continents

By then it might be too late
To understand where each of us is coming from
But right now
I really don’t care